I'm having one of those emo bouts again......seems like those periods girls have........just that mine doesnt come dat often, aint wif a regular period, and i dun get pregnant when sumone fucks me with or w/o it.........
I really envy those ppl who can just live the way they want their life to be........they dun care abt other ppl's opinions..........they dun care abt how their parents, family, friends or the whole damn society look at em...........they make a choice, n live their life the way dat choice dictates...........n they dun look bck.............
I'm confused............but i'm still waiting for an answer............
Have u ever cried on ur own when u're all by urself n suddenly realise that u're crying for nothing.........? I mean there's nth for u to cry.........nobody died..........u din fail ur exams (though in my case i did, but that's not the point) u din get dumped by ur girlfren.........there's nth at all.............but den u just cry..............
I envy those kind of frenships where absolutely no pretense is required.......frenships that grew up wif u...........i use to have a few of those..........but nowadays i onli have 1...........and even dat 1 is slipping out of my hands..........so i'm trying to do sth abt it.........while also trying to build up new ones frm where i am now............but it all requires a lot of time...........and a lot of trust btw ppl...........and a lot of things to happen for the ppl to no each other better...........that's when all the pretense go away.............
I've been confused since i realise some things at sum age...................but den after all these years i'm still pretending.........n sumtimes u just wanna give up...............at times u tink u're sure.......at times u're not so sure............n there's absolutely noone u can confide in.........all u can do is cry in the middle of the nite n when it's over u dun even noe why u cried............
I'm trying to change things...........trying veri hard..........i'm punishing myself when i dun stick to it nowadays.........cos i desperately wanna see a change..............dat's all i need.........n dat's all i ever need in my life up till now.............
I have nowhere else to go.............
I really envy those ppl who can just live the way they want their life to be........they dun care abt other ppl's opinions..........they dun care abt how their parents, family, friends or the whole damn society look at em...........they make a choice, n live their life the way dat choice dictates...........n they dun look bck.............
I'm confused............but i'm still waiting for an answer............
Have u ever cried on ur own when u're all by urself n suddenly realise that u're crying for nothing.........? I mean there's nth for u to cry.........nobody died..........u din fail ur exams (though in my case i did, but that's not the point) u din get dumped by ur girlfren.........there's nth at all.............but den u just cry..............
I envy those kind of frenships where absolutely no pretense is required.......frenships that grew up wif u...........i use to have a few of those..........but nowadays i onli have 1...........and even dat 1 is slipping out of my hands..........so i'm trying to do sth abt it.........while also trying to build up new ones frm where i am now............but it all requires a lot of time...........and a lot of trust btw ppl...........and a lot of things to happen for the ppl to no each other better...........that's when all the pretense go away.............
I've been confused since i realise some things at sum age...................but den after all these years i'm still pretending.........n sumtimes u just wanna give up...............at times u tink u're sure.......at times u're not so sure............n there's absolutely noone u can confide in.........all u can do is cry in the middle of the nite n when it's over u dun even noe why u cried............
I'm trying to change things...........trying veri hard..........i'm punishing myself when i dun stick to it nowadays.........cos i desperately wanna see a change..............dat's all i need.........n dat's all i ever need in my life up till now.............
I have nowhere else to go.............