The Day I'll Finally Live My Life The Way I Want It
Finally managed to finish the Handball Girls Semifinals video so yay 1 video down and 2 to go! Took me quite long but the end product was still ok so was still satisfied....at least i tried to do a decent 1 instead of just trying to finish it up with a mediocre product.........
I dun noe about others but....for me....it's impossible for me to live the life i want at the place where i'm at right now.........and it's not restricted by geographical boundaries either......... there are sum inherent values and thinkings and perspectives that will remain unchanged even as we see the rest of the world moving on.........cos our part of the world is still not ready yet.......we just can't except things being any other way except that of what we're used to, not even when we see it with our own eyes on tv or in the papers......... For sum ppl, obviously its just natural.......rite frm the moment they were born sum things are just a matter of fact........there are no other ways of going about it cos from the way they see it, there is but 1 option available.........how you came about to possess a second option is beyond them.....but then sum of us do.........heck we may even have a 3rd option for all u noe............but the fucking thing is i can't even begin to tell u where all these extra options came from....or the moment they 1st appeared....or why they appeared and how they appeared in the very 1st place! I'm as clueless as u are, but then at the same time i cannot dismiss the fact that these options have now become available to me..........or that they may even replace other options ppl deemed normal......and has now evolved into my 1st priority.........
I've been kinda down lately........though i never let it show..........u will nvr find me upset when i'm with frens.........cos i can't bring myself to be sad in front of them.........it's like spoiling the whole atmosphere with ur moodiness isn't it? Kinda like a spoilsport.........i laugh with em n joke around wif them............but then things onli remain as they are according to the situation....... u sort of realise dat when u're bck in ur room alone.......
I wud like to see changes........heck i've said to myself a hundred million times i WUN EVER allow myself to live like dat fot the rest of my life...........for once, even if it's only a brief moment, i will live my life the way i wan it..........of course i wud hope to be able to dat when i'm young, and not when i'm already old and load of options have run out for me........but then at the same time when u're young there are many restrictions too.......... funny how ppl always tink that youth is the best moment to do what u wan..........maybe it is so overseas.........but for asians i hardly tink that applies.......cos our family will always be there.......u can't possibly just tell ur parents u wana go stay abroad n do wad u wan w/o any prior planning n expect em to let u........
I dunno..........i dun ever wanna regret living tis life as tis identity....... (cos u never noe....maybe reincarnation really happens n u get a 2nd chance living a life as sumone else...) i wanna do sth for once that's according to my wishes...........
We'll see...............
Finally managed to finish the Handball Girls Semifinals video so yay 1 video down and 2 to go! Took me quite long but the end product was still ok so was still satisfied....at least i tried to do a decent 1 instead of just trying to finish it up with a mediocre product.........
I dun noe about others but....for me....it's impossible for me to live the life i want at the place where i'm at right now.........and it's not restricted by geographical boundaries either......... there are sum inherent values and thinkings and perspectives that will remain unchanged even as we see the rest of the world moving on.........cos our part of the world is still not ready yet.......we just can't except things being any other way except that of what we're used to, not even when we see it with our own eyes on tv or in the papers......... For sum ppl, obviously its just natural.......rite frm the moment they were born sum things are just a matter of fact........there are no other ways of going about it cos from the way they see it, there is but 1 option available.........how you came about to possess a second option is beyond them.....but then sum of us do.........heck we may even have a 3rd option for all u noe............but the fucking thing is i can't even begin to tell u where all these extra options came from....or the moment they 1st appeared....or why they appeared and how they appeared in the very 1st place! I'm as clueless as u are, but then at the same time i cannot dismiss the fact that these options have now become available to me..........or that they may even replace other options ppl deemed normal......and has now evolved into my 1st priority.........
I've been kinda down lately........though i never let it show..........u will nvr find me upset when i'm with frens.........cos i can't bring myself to be sad in front of them.........it's like spoiling the whole atmosphere with ur moodiness isn't it? Kinda like a spoilsport.........i laugh with em n joke around wif them............but then things onli remain as they are according to the situation....... u sort of realise dat when u're bck in ur room alone.......
I wud like to see changes........heck i've said to myself a hundred million times i WUN EVER allow myself to live like dat fot the rest of my life...........for once, even if it's only a brief moment, i will live my life the way i wan it..........of course i wud hope to be able to dat when i'm young, and not when i'm already old and load of options have run out for me........but then at the same time when u're young there are many restrictions too.......... funny how ppl always tink that youth is the best moment to do what u wan..........maybe it is so overseas.........but for asians i hardly tink that applies.......cos our family will always be there.......u can't possibly just tell ur parents u wana go stay abroad n do wad u wan w/o any prior planning n expect em to let u........
I dunno..........i dun ever wanna regret living tis life as tis identity....... (cos u never noe....maybe reincarnation really happens n u get a 2nd chance living a life as sumone else...) i wanna do sth for once that's according to my wishes...........
We'll see...............