Haven blogged for a long time except for that short little message i left like ytd or the day before.....exams ain't over yet and i only have 3 papers but already i'm lethargic.........it hasn't really been smooth sailing this semester although it was very much better than last semester.......but somehow i'm just so worried........i do realise that i haven really put in 100%........heck i dun even come close to 30% if i were to compare myself with some of my frens who seldom or even NEVER misses their lectures and tutorials........but then at the same time tis semester was supposed to be important and CRITICAL for me...........it seems like when u're studying sth u have absolutely no passion for, things seem to hold no meaning of watsoever for u.........as for the consequences, well let's just say u only cry when the milk's been spilled..........
I envy people who studies sth they have a passion for........or have a job they enjoy doing a lot.......i came across a fren's blog and she was totally in love with her course, that being architecture. Architecture is like the ultimate worst nightmare course in Uni not because it sucks but because of the horrendous workload........archi students in NUS practically LIVE in thier studios.......they bring beds n blankets n pillows with them and can spend like days n weeks in the same studio rushing projects and stuff..........plus the course is for 5 years..........but she totally loved what she does, and i must say she does a very very good job too. But studies doesn't take up all her life............she's into photography, hangs out with her frens, takes French even though her course alone can probably kill her............
So what's wrong with me.............?
I have my last paper soon...........it's actually this friday.......and i haven started.............
It's too late to change course i guess..........i mean ya i probably CAN but the problem is (like i said before) i wouldn't know what i wanna do even if the chance is there.......i noe i probably wud have done a lot of things differently had i a chance to re-live my life, but choosing a course is sth that lies still within the grey area of doubt.........
At least i'm thankful that i have great frens in hall who are accompanying me on this pointless race to ace the exams, of which i tink are totally pointless.......the lecturers dun make themselves clear on certain issues, the exams format are still as pointless as before and they probably will continue to be that way for a very long time more, and we are competing against people who probably sits for a MENSA test every week...........
Why can't they ever learn that being able to solve more questions within a shorter period of time or being able to cram more facts inside your brain doesn't automatically mean u're smarter and will do great things in life........? I mean does it appear to you that scientist and inventors have only 2 hours to figure out a maths or science problem in their work? Or that they have the whole damn periodic table and all the elements' details in their heads....? What the heck is the internet for then....? I dunno about unis abroad, but most of the time from what i've gathered their emphasis on exams make so much more sense that what i'm seeing here......or at least in the asian region..........i mean what if i was able to solve that maths question had i had 30 more minutes to come back to it..........? Or that i was able to solve that MCQ regarding which metal corrodes 1st if u had given me their standard electrode potential......? The concepts are there, but the facts are not....does that mean i wudn't be able to solve that question in real life? I can google or wiki their potentials online u idiots...........as long as i noe that the ones with lower potential oxidizes, isn't that the whole point already? Am i being penalised for not "memorising" all that nitty bitty details when even a JC chem tutor/lecturer may not noe........?!
I'm bitchy and bitter..........i noe................
Sum pics from the best class i've been in thruout this whole year in this shit hole of uni...........
French 2 is my saviour this semester.........i ain't kidding.....................
From left: Joshua, Rhoda, Ling (the archi student i mentioned), Ian, Yannick, Vannessa, Xin Li, Me, Rae, Chirlyn, Andrew, Chin Seng, Iliana, Saori.
Monsieur Yannick Appriou
I envy people who studies sth they have a passion for........or have a job they enjoy doing a lot.......i came across a fren's blog and she was totally in love with her course, that being architecture. Architecture is like the ultimate worst nightmare course in Uni not because it sucks but because of the horrendous workload........archi students in NUS practically LIVE in thier studios.......they bring beds n blankets n pillows with them and can spend like days n weeks in the same studio rushing projects and stuff..........plus the course is for 5 years..........but she totally loved what she does, and i must say she does a very very good job too. But studies doesn't take up all her life............she's into photography, hangs out with her frens, takes French even though her course alone can probably kill her............
So what's wrong with me.............?
I have my last paper soon...........it's actually this friday.......and i haven started.............
It's too late to change course i guess..........i mean ya i probably CAN but the problem is (like i said before) i wouldn't know what i wanna do even if the chance is there.......i noe i probably wud have done a lot of things differently had i a chance to re-live my life, but choosing a course is sth that lies still within the grey area of doubt.........
At least i'm thankful that i have great frens in hall who are accompanying me on this pointless race to ace the exams, of which i tink are totally pointless.......the lecturers dun make themselves clear on certain issues, the exams format are still as pointless as before and they probably will continue to be that way for a very long time more, and we are competing against people who probably sits for a MENSA test every week...........
Why can't they ever learn that being able to solve more questions within a shorter period of time or being able to cram more facts inside your brain doesn't automatically mean u're smarter and will do great things in life........? I mean does it appear to you that scientist and inventors have only 2 hours to figure out a maths or science problem in their work? Or that they have the whole damn periodic table and all the elements' details in their heads....? What the heck is the internet for then....? I dunno about unis abroad, but most of the time from what i've gathered their emphasis on exams make so much more sense that what i'm seeing here......or at least in the asian region..........i mean what if i was able to solve that maths question had i had 30 more minutes to come back to it..........? Or that i was able to solve that MCQ regarding which metal corrodes 1st if u had given me their standard electrode potential......? The concepts are there, but the facts are not....does that mean i wudn't be able to solve that question in real life? I can google or wiki their potentials online u idiots...........as long as i noe that the ones with lower potential oxidizes, isn't that the whole point already? Am i being penalised for not "memorising" all that nitty bitty details when even a JC chem tutor/lecturer may not noe........?!
I'm bitchy and bitter..........i noe................
Sum pics from the best class i've been in thruout this whole year in this shit hole of uni...........
French 2 is my saviour this semester.........i ain't kidding.....................
From left: Joshua, Rhoda, Ling (the archi student i mentioned), Ian, Yannick, Vannessa, Xin Li, Me, Rae, Chirlyn, Andrew, Chin Seng, Iliana, Saori.
Monsieur Yannick Appriou
Me and Rae
Dun look so bitter now do I.........................