It's been a depressing first meeting.........after being so nervous with all the planning and preparation it's still a mess..........as much as i wud like to deny or find excuses for all my shortcomings, i know it's a stupid thing to do.......and dat i am in no position to do dat cos i am at fault..........i'm probably really not cut out for these kind of positions, but i wanna give it a try......i don't want to get stuck in the same old positions for my entire life and not make an effort to change.........
I know my shortcomings and i know them well........but sadly my shortcomings are very much more obvious than sum others...........so while the others can choose not to do anything despite repeated reminds of their weaknesses, i can't do the same. I have to change. It's not fair........ya......i know.........but hey, if it makes me a better person, why not?
I'm still angry and frustrated over everything.......over what they've said.......
I tend to do everything on my own.......but when it reaches a scale such as this, even i have to delegate sum stuff to the rest.........I should........but i din..........and trying to handle so many stuff at the same time while taking care of my studies as well is really not easy............i'm constantly worrying about this or that.........there's never a moment's rest...........
There's still a long way to go...........i hope i dun crumble under everything so soon..........i dun believe i can't make it work..........i want to make it work! And i'll do all i can to see it through........
I know my shortcomings and i know them well........but sadly my shortcomings are very much more obvious than sum others...........so while the others can choose not to do anything despite repeated reminds of their weaknesses, i can't do the same. I have to change. It's not fair........ya......i know.........but hey, if it makes me a better person, why not?
I'm still angry and frustrated over everything.......over what they've said.......
I tend to do everything on my own.......but when it reaches a scale such as this, even i have to delegate sum stuff to the rest.........I should........but i din..........and trying to handle so many stuff at the same time while taking care of my studies as well is really not easy............i'm constantly worrying about this or that.........there's never a moment's rest...........
There's still a long way to go...........i hope i dun crumble under everything so soon..........i dun believe i can't make it work..........i want to make it work! And i'll do all i can to see it through........