It's kinda scary.......to be hit by sth so suddenly.....no warnings...no signs....and then wham! And it's done....

When I start thinking back...it kinda seems to me that I've been running away from responsibilities all my life....probably because so many things were always taken care of for me on their own (or by someone else)......but then all of a sudden they're coming from everywhere.....

I've always tot that at least familial responsibilities wudn't hit me for some time to come, since I'm the youngest in the family anyway...especially when both brothers are now at home as well.......if anything needs to be done, someone needs to take charge, there's my dad, my mum, then jeff, then jason.....and finally me........but then things dun seem to run the way u imagine it to be......

I will admit.....i'm not made for responsibles.....i suck at them.....but then somehow being "resposibleless" is sth that only exists when you're still in secondary sch.....or maybe jc......after that, you dun get such a deal anymore......

I wanna be responsible....but i hate the burden that comes with it....i dun like that feeling....but then......