Wadever.

I dun really noe wad I'm doing right now. As in, I dunno what I'm working for right now, if I'm even "working".

I can't be bothered with my studies. I can't be bothered with finding a job.

I dun have a concrete idea of what my strengths and weaknesses are.

I dun really noe where my passion lies (in things that count and matter).

I do noe that I have a fucked up attitude in life atm. Which sucks. Big time.

I'm trying to recall what and when brought me to this threshold, but nth's coming up. It just seem so....natural and...expected? Like it was meant to be for me to come to this point.

Maybe sth huge will happen that will cause sum drastic changes in my lives, like it always does in the movies. Maybe I'll fail my FYP. Maybe I wun be able to get a job despite applying for tonnes. Maybe that lump on my head will turn out to be a malicious tumor afterall.

Wadever.

Met Yingxia, Li Yun and Guna ytd night. Pancakes at (where else) Strictly Pancakes and a jug of lime margarita at Cafe Iguana (with free nachos to boot! Check in with 4square and leave a tip, den show it to the manager and you can exchange for a plate of small nachos that normally cost S$20! Awesome or what! They have similar specials at Brewerkz as well). Goofed around all night long on topics like dildos, the 2 typical classes in gay relationships (in which Guna provided sum interesting insight, but dun get the wrong idea, he's as str8 as a ruler, to quote yingxia's words for li yun) and whether or not the cute waiter who served us at Cafe Iguana was gay.

For the record, both me and Guna said he was/is after his first visit to our table. The gals were appalled and intrigued with our speed at identifying a guy's sexuality.

By his 3rd visit, I was confirm chop slap chest sure.

By his 5th visit, I cudn't be bothered le.

The gals were partially convinced when he passed us the bill at the end.

Once again, I maintain. I have nothing against gays and les. Who noes, I might be attracted to a cute guy in the future. Or I might die a lonely loner death, all alone.

Returning to the topic, we weren't being mean or bitchy or anything when we were discussing abt the waiter. It was just something that came out due to the fact dat we were talking about the issue even before we got to Cafe Iguana. And it's not like I'm a gay x-ray or anything. It's just, most of my frens are guys. Plus I live in hall. Used to stay in a hostel. And attended an all-boys secondary school. It gets to the point where you're very familiar with how guys normally act and behave. It doesn't have to be something overly obvious. In fact, the signs are normally very very subtle body language. To both Guna and me, the waiter was like bam! wham! clear-as-the-sky obvious. The gals just didn't get it and cudn't understand. Maybe it's a guy thing.

But, I'm pretty convinced that there is an increasing number of guys out there who behave just like everyone else but are either bi or gay. In fact, sumhow I'm pretty certain that MOST guys nowadays are bi. I dunno why. Just a gut feeling. My first visit to PLAY (and my 4th visit to a club, so far) didn't really help to reinforce this notion of mine, but I'm still pretty sold on it. Somehow.

There's tis singer that I find really good. A male singer, but I'm not quite sure how to categorize his genre of music. Emo country, perhaps. His name is Shane Mack. I stumbled across his songs when I was using the stumbleupon website (I'm serious), which, incidentally, is a cool website I like to go to whenever I'm bored. I found more of his songs on youtube (duh...), and apparently he sang the OST for a movie called "Shelter". I dun wan to say anything cos I dun wan to insert any pre-conceived ideas into your heads about the movie. I rather you just go watch it yourselves. I tink they still have it on youtube (search for "Shelter 1". it shud be the 1st link), albeit in parts. I like the sountrack, I like the movie, I like the story, I like the acting. Very non-stereotypical in all senses of the topic.

But I'm still high over her music.