I........
I need some time away from everything. Well, not everything per se. Hall and studies remain.
Hall because the ppl here are those dat I've lived and learned with for the past 4 years. If I'd actually achieved any growing up during this part of my life, it's with these peeps. They may not noe me as intimately as others do, but they noe me for the person I am on a day to day basis. Not too much, not too little. The precise distance in friends that I require right now.
Studies because it's an easy target to be used as a focus in life. It's my very last semester. There's no going back. I'm thankful to have such an empty timetable in my last semester. Gives me room to insert things and activities. I wanna try things I haven tried for the past 4 years of my life in NUS. I wanna hold down a part-time job while studying and understand what it feels like. I wanna give my remaining modules wadever ethusiasm that's left in me and see where that leads.
And I also wanna start exercising regularly. Thank god for gym-freaks along my corridor. They're gonna be my personal trainers since I am as familiar with a gym as I am with a tampon. Jogging's fun only if you have an ipod, which I do. Awesome.
Interim presentation was concluded today. I wanted to put up a smiley face and just present the whole damn thing, regardless of whether or not I had the reasons to smile in the first place. Managed to do dat when I met my prof in the morning. Nearly failed at the presentation itself because Madeleine who went before me apparently did pretty well. Talk about being influenced by your surroundings. But still, smile on my face, an awfully cheerful voice, with an oddly sequenced powerpoint slides, and before I know it the whole affair was done. Questions were answered as best as I could, and for sure I knew I could do much better, but at least both professors looked satisfied. I can't ask for more.
Won't ask for more.
On a side note, I dunno what I'm becoming. Still, thankful for frens who seem to always be there. I didn't realize that I've started to be so dependent on my friends. Not for their help. But merely for their presence. I used to be able to survive so well alone. I wonder what changed.
I figure someone among the ones reading this blog can appreciate the lyrics of this song quite well. I can only wish you all the best in your relationship/s, cos god knows I haven been in one myself. Go for one that last. Someone you can cuddle with 10 years down the road and not feel awkward. That's the best advice I can give you. Right now.
Adele ~ Someone Like You
I need some time away from everything. Well, not everything per se. Hall and studies remain.
Hall because the ppl here are those dat I've lived and learned with for the past 4 years. If I'd actually achieved any growing up during this part of my life, it's with these peeps. They may not noe me as intimately as others do, but they noe me for the person I am on a day to day basis. Not too much, not too little. The precise distance in friends that I require right now.
Studies because it's an easy target to be used as a focus in life. It's my very last semester. There's no going back. I'm thankful to have such an empty timetable in my last semester. Gives me room to insert things and activities. I wanna try things I haven tried for the past 4 years of my life in NUS. I wanna hold down a part-time job while studying and understand what it feels like. I wanna give my remaining modules wadever ethusiasm that's left in me and see where that leads.
And I also wanna start exercising regularly. Thank god for gym-freaks along my corridor. They're gonna be my personal trainers since I am as familiar with a gym as I am with a tampon. Jogging's fun only if you have an ipod, which I do. Awesome.
Interim presentation was concluded today. I wanted to put up a smiley face and just present the whole damn thing, regardless of whether or not I had the reasons to smile in the first place. Managed to do dat when I met my prof in the morning. Nearly failed at the presentation itself because Madeleine who went before me apparently did pretty well. Talk about being influenced by your surroundings. But still, smile on my face, an awfully cheerful voice, with an oddly sequenced powerpoint slides, and before I know it the whole affair was done. Questions were answered as best as I could, and for sure I knew I could do much better, but at least both professors looked satisfied. I can't ask for more.
Won't ask for more.
On a side note, I dunno what I'm becoming. Still, thankful for frens who seem to always be there. I didn't realize that I've started to be so dependent on my friends. Not for their help. But merely for their presence. I used to be able to survive so well alone. I wonder what changed.
I figure someone among the ones reading this blog can appreciate the lyrics of this song quite well. I can only wish you all the best in your relationship/s, cos god knows I haven been in one myself. Go for one that last. Someone you can cuddle with 10 years down the road and not feel awkward. That's the best advice I can give you. Right now.
Adele ~ Someone Like You