Honestly, I used to have a really really bad impression with regards to clubbing. Probably cos of all the drinking and dancing and flirting and grinding and humping and squeezing and deafening bass and expensive alcohol and rude clubbers etc...

My first clubbing experience was really kinda like a let down. Second time didn't really count cos I was on duty and didn't stay back to club after the event ended. Third time was with the bros, and it was my first time attempting to really get into the flow.

Ytd was my fourth. Talk about being experienced.

But ytd was really really fun. I wasn't high at all from the alcohol. I dunno why. The girls kept getting us drinks since it was free flow for them. Mixers, beer etc. We kept drinking. But it didn't even make me go red. I dunno why. The music? Or all that standing and walking and yelling and laughing...?

But when it was time to enter the dance floor, it was the music that made us all high. The songs weren't too bad, and thank god for the company. Everyone was willing to let loose.

9 hours of work at PageOne with constant standing and walking around followed by 5 hours of clubbing is really really hard on the legs. Plus that one night cost me more than the 9 hours of work brought in. Lol.

Drinking and clubbing is to me, nothing but the company. I think the same applies to a lot more things in my life. Makes it sound like I'm too dependent on the people around me. Which I am. I derive a lot of my life's happiness from the happiness of the people around me. That's why I like to make people happy. Unless I am too lazy, which is also a common occurrence. But then again, I've learnt to live by myself for quite some time now. I know how to make myself happy.

With a song. A book. Staring at the ceiling while lying on the bed. Day-dreaming on the bus. Listening to the rain while tucked in my bed.

Not all beginnings are bad. Not all beginnings are good either. I dunno how my beginning was, but it doesn't matter. Not all beginnings can be as awesome as the intro of the song below. But at least things seem to be going well for now. not necessarily true in the larger scope of things, but I'm contented with the slightest feelings of gratification. Yesterday and this song makes me feel contented now.

I like it now.