Saturday, October 27, 2007 @ 9:25 PM
Had night cycling yesterday night whereby all of us from TH set off frm NUS on bikes towards East Coast Park and man was it tiring! I mean yah it was fun cos cycling in the middle of the nite was super cooling and it was my 1st time cycling ont he streets and stuff, plus we stopped at different stops for supper including Newton Food Centre but den 10 hours of being on a bike can KILL!!! My butt was super sore after the whole event and my thighs were just killing me cos there was so many up slopes and we were cycling hard for the last hour or so when everyone's already tired............so even though we set off at 10pm on Friday nite, by the time i reached bck my room on Saturday it was already 9am.......den slept for a while but overslept till almost 12 n had to quickly get up n bath n get changed cos had a lunch appointment with my frens since it was my buddy's birthday............wahhhh when i finally reach bck my room AGAIN it was like 5pm liao.....no sleep for 1 entire day............can die...............

I tink i just had enuf cycling for the next 3 months or so haha............buey tahan lar............

Busy busy busy..............
Saturday, October 20, 2007 @ 8:03 PM
Wahhhh no mood to do hw haha but den still have to do......sien........

Jogging has sort of beocme a part of my life liao..........so just gonna continue wif it n we'll see den.........

Got make-up physics test next week...........have to mug again............

Still haven done my contacts...............wad de................

Feel like going home.........but no hols leh..............maybe next next week during deepavali can go home................hopefully bah.............

I wan sum good food to compensate for my lack of nice food for the past 2 weeks............i dun mean to eat a lot...........just wanna eat sum nicer stuff den instance noodles, 3-in-1 milo, instant cereals n hall food...............hopefully tmr can meet up wif sum of my jc frens for dinner........i wanna eat la mian!! Den maybe can buy more books again (i exhausted 7 new books within 2 weeks) n maybe even find a place to do my contacts..........

Ok gotta do my french homework...........gampate!

Terra Naomi ~ Say It's Possible
Tuesday, October 16, 2007 @ 2:27 AM
Wahhhhhhhhhhhh really damn hard to control my diet leh..........although nowadays i dun eat more than 3 meals a day (normally it's just brunch and dinner) but sumtimes the craving for food just gets so strong............especially during comm meetings cos always got welfare and they always buy snacks like potato chips or mamee or sweets....................haih den since i've already paid mite as well take sum rite..........den by the time i finish eating (but i still eat a little onli) i feel so guilty..........so in the end must go jogging again..........

In fact i just ate 2 packets of wang wang (the small packet lar not the whole freaking big packet one) and 1 packet of mamee.......n i felt so freaking guilty cos i told myself i shudn't eat.........but den in the end still gave in to temptation...........damn it lar...........so in the end went jogging again (i was planning to jog aneway but my gluttony gave me more pressure to see it thru dats all) and tis time punished myself by jogging 1 extra round so in the end jogged 9 rounds about the track..........at least got improvement lar............actually can tahan till 10 rounds also but cos i dun wanna be able to do 10 rounds today n drop to 6 rounds tmr........so i add little by little everyday............

Actually if u realise by now i'm no longer in the melancholy mood liao lol...........cos my emo bouts come about once in a while......especially after watching sum movies which left me with issues to tink about.......issues that had to do with myself all these years n yet i haven got the chance to sort them out.........so when i watch such movies n tink abt those issues again i feel veri frustrated abt not being able to do anything abt em n thus fall into those emo mood........but now slightly better liao..........cos always will hu xi luan xiang when i'm alone.........n i'm normally alone during the weekends..........dats y lor.........

Got loads of things to tink about..........mostly about my life lar........i want to take time to sort them out.......cos sum of these issues really cannot simply rush abt................must tink properly.........den..........we'll see how lor..............

Can't wait for the night cycling event! Though most probably my butt wud be sore after it.........n i most probably wun be eating much on the way..........but who cares............it's the experience n the company dat matters.......! :)
Sunday, October 14, 2007 @ 8:58 AM
I'm having one of those emo bouts again......seems like those periods girls have........just that mine doesnt come dat often, aint wif a regular period, and i dun get pregnant when sumone fucks me with or w/o it.........

I really envy those ppl who can just live the way they want their life to be........they dun care abt other ppl's opinions..........they dun care abt how their parents, family, friends or the whole damn society look at em...........they make a choice, n live their life the way dat choice dictates...........n they dun look bck.............

I'm confused............but i'm still waiting for an answer............

Have u ever cried on ur own when u're all by urself n suddenly realise that u're crying for nothing.........? I mean there's nth for u to cry.........nobody died..........u din fail ur exams (though in my case i did, but that's not the point) u din get dumped by ur girlfren.........there's nth at all.............but den u just cry..............

I envy those kind of frenships where absolutely no pretense is required.......frenships that grew up wif u...........i use to have a few of those..........but nowadays i onli have 1...........and even dat 1 is slipping out of my hands..........so i'm trying to do sth abt it.........while also trying to build up new ones frm where i am now............but it all requires a lot of time...........and a lot of trust btw ppl...........and a lot of things to happen for the ppl to no each other better...........that's when all the pretense go away.............

I've been confused since i realise some things at sum age...................but den after all these years i'm still pretending.........n sumtimes u just wanna give up...............at times u tink u're sure.......at times u're not so sure............n there's absolutely noone u can confide in.........all u can do is cry in the middle of the nite n when it's over u dun even noe why u cried............

I'm trying to change things...........trying veri hard..........i'm punishing myself when i dun stick to it nowadays.........cos i desperately wanna see a change..............dat's all i need.........n dat's all i ever need in my life up till now.............

I have nowhere else to go.............
Thursday, October 11, 2007 @ 11:30 PM
Phew luckily did reasonably well for my French paper so that's good news to me. Actually it's more than good news cos i really wanna do well for my French and seeing how things are going now i believe that if i work a little harder to maintain things as they are i can get good grades for it. Which is good not just for the sake of getting good grades for French lar cos i have other modules in which i'm not exactly performing well so if i can do well for French it will definitely pull things up!

I tink i failed my 1st statics quiz which was kinda in my expectations anyway.....that's one of the modules in which i just can't seem to do well for..........well that has to change....and change soon or else if i leave things up to the last minute again i'll just die like bck in JC..........

Trying to catch up with my tutorials haha cos left too many undone when i was preparing for the mid-term.........gonna try to finish them be4 weekend arrives so i can mug statics n physics.......the reason is i still have my physics mid-term make-up test to do while i intend to book a time to meet my statics tutor to go thru everything so i gtg prepare 1st! Haih hope i can get my last 2 maths tutorial done today though dat seems a little impossible leh haha.......already there's so many other things to be done for the different comms......haih lesson learnt lar: dun ever pile up ur work it's almost impossible to get things bck to what they use to be once u do dat.............

Many ppl's birthdays coming up n i dunno wad to get em....die................

I wanna watch resident evil............who can go watch wif me...........? On second thought, i dun tink i have the time aneway........haih.............

Life's busy, but at least i'm still enoying it............let's hope it'll last! :)

Celine Dion ~ Alone
Tuesday, October 09, 2007 @ 1:39 AM
Haih cui cui cui for programming.........but wad the heck...........just gotta do better the next time den............

Beginning to feel stress leh cos im behind my work, i still owe one mid-term make-up, all the comms have started, im still fat, and my mid-term sucks.............fine i just gotta compromise on my sleeping time to make up for them............

Had 2 comm meetings today.........blk comm n vpu..........im under archiving in vpu so at least i got wad i wanted....... :) but cos i'm the onli alka guy in there so quite sien............maybe things will get better once we get to noe more ppl! (gotta be optimistic here)

Went jogging again............alone tis time round cos had meetings which ended quite late so can't get chris or xin hui to go wif me..........but tis time got improvement leh i ran frm TH all the way to the tracks n ran for 8 rounds non-stop lor! Dat time run wif xin hui onli ran 6 rounds n i nearly died too......! Dunno y leh but i realised that once you get past a certain limit ur legs n thighs just go numb n u dun feel tired at all.........so u just continuously send the message "KEEP RUNNING" to ur head den u will keep on going until u feel it's enough.........so yalor dats how i ran for 8 rounds continuously on the tracks w/o stopping today..........of cos my speed was veri veri slow lar but that's wad i can manage up till now so i'll stick to it............maybe once i get used to it can increase the speed little by little.

Haven got my contacts done leh sien.......really no time lor..........its either im trying to complete my tutorials, or attending comm meetings, or settling comm issues n responsibilities, or trying to catch a nap amidst all the chaos, or simply trying to lose sum weight............den be4 u noe it ur sem exams r here........den u stay bck during the hols for sum comm stuff..........n once again be4 u noe it ur hols r gone..........den sem 2 starts n the whole cycle begins once again........

I seriously SERIOUSLY hope i can go on a holiday during the sem hols..........but den if im gonna join hol comm, i guess there's no hope for that at all...........

Day dreaming suits me best.............

Anggun ~ Juste Avant Toi
Sunday, October 07, 2007 @ 3:17 PM
Yay finally i got around to spring cleaning my room hahaha! Did sum sweeping n moping (wif a piece of cloth since i dun have a mop) and dusted my carpet n stuff.........organised all my notes n tutorials n textbooks since the mid-term is over n boy does my room look more spacious now! :)

Wanted to go out n get my contacts done as well as buy sum books to read.........but den it was raining n i onli woke up at 1 pm..........so..........hmph...........its either i go out at nite or i do it another day............

Jogging again tonite? Probably haha gotta keep the momentum up u noe? Once i rest for too long it's very hard to get me going again...........mentally weak, that's me haha!

Well, there's a whole load of tutorials for me to catch up so gotta start doing them..........haih........aneway if u haven't seen tis vid yet go see it it's very good haha chris introed it to me n i just can't stop watching it lol! :P

http://youtube.com/watch?v=4TM3GbxaNLI

Corrinne May ~ An Angel In Disguise
Saturday, October 06, 2007 @ 9:39 PM
Well, finally mid-term is officially gone.......actually no..........it's more of like self-declared......cos i still have a physics make-up to do..........and i still dunno when it's gonna be...........

French written didnt go too well i guess..........cos the listening comprehension was a tad too fast n i cudn't catch sum stuff..........den the written compre part was kinda screwed up too........but i guess dats the best i can do.........i did do my revision so we'll just see how it goes on monday.........

Econs cud actually be very ok............cos the MCQs (though theres 40 of them) were all easier than the A levels standard............but too bad i onli started my revision on fri (my test was today) and i had to revise 12 chaps while concurrently doing my revision for my programming paper too..........and there wasn't any past year papers to prac on...........if onli i had my A levels TYS wif me.........well i guess i probably wun fail my econs but i wun get anything near an A for it either...........programming was much much trickier.............as usual i guess cos all the past year papers were tricky aneway...........nearly had not enuf time to finish it........bad sign huh? Well i hope i did alright cos i did put in effort for its revision...........at least let me get 60% of the questions rite lar...........

I'm a little spent nowadays...........but the worst is yet to come.........cos comm meetings will be starting soon..........but things will get worst in sem 2 so now betta enjoy myself as much as possible 1st be4 i lose the chance to do so............

Gonna get my contacts done...........been talking abt it for quite sum time so now its time to actually do it.............the best thing abt studying in another country is the freedom u get.......cos my parents wud be nagging at me if i were to ask for my contacts to be done while i was at home.........now dat im here im making my own decisions, no? Hahaha well they're not exactly bad or sinful things so i guess its alright...........im already saving money nowadays cos i dun eat lunch outside..........been buying bread n eating them for lunch............cheap n i can shed sum kilos..........trying to establish the habit of going nite jogging too n i hope tis time i'll persevere till i see sum results in my weight..........!

I'm kinda behind my work nowadays..........my habit of ponning lectures n tutorials have changed for the worst ever since tis new found freedom is given to me...........haih.........but im always justifying myself..........i sleep in lect, i dun listen aneway, the lecturer sucks, it's a waste of time etc etc.........n more often than not they're true.........but seeing that everyone else attends all their lectures make me feel so guilty........i've already ponned more than 30++ lectures n tutorials up to now liao i tink........maybe even more.......out of 4 econs tutorial i've onli been to one.........i've also onli been to 2 statics lects out of 7...........maths n physics i pon almost 1 each every week..........dun even go to econs lect........... i've onli attended it twice out of a possible 7 lects in total.........

Well i guess that's my way of surviving uni........as long as i understand wad they're teaching in the end n complete my tutorials i dun tink anyone can say otherwise wif wad i've been doing..........u can't possibly expect me to attend a 2 hour ECONS lect at 8am in the morning when i slept at 4am rite............? Likewise for statics lect............

I'm 2 tutorials behind for maths and my lect notes for maths, physics and statics are also ard 2 sessions behind the current one........so gotta go update em..........at least i'm on par for french hahaha! Silver lining i guess...........or it's just me being optimistic for a change...........

it seems strange u noe.......cos when it comes to academic stuff i've always been confident abt myself...........even when i've onli started my revision today n my test is due tmr i dun get nervous.......somehow i believe that i can get it all sorted out n still get decent grades...........but i can't say the same wif my life as a whole.........my social circle, my frens, my family etc etc.....i'm no good at making conversations........i'm not sensitive enuf to sense other people's needs.......i'm definitely not charismatic...........my social skills suck............that's probably y i dun have dat many close frens in the first place.........but dat's also probably y i cherish those i have even more........

I wanna go on a holiday......wif frens..........there's never pressure nor stress when u're on a holiday wif frens..........it's just gr8 fun! But i suppose that's a lavish thought rite now.......

OK enuf of tis............i ate quite a sinful dinner (mee hoon kuey - i din finish it - and one popiah.......quite sinful for a person who's supposedly on a diet to shed sum kilos......) so gotta go redeem myself thru jogging.......probably wif xin hui since she wanted to jog as well.........hope she doesnt go too fast else i wun be able to catch up lol...........ain't dat a guy's greatest shame, not being able to catch up wif a gal? Hahaha well let's just be thankful it's not Yati i'm jogging wif.........her 2.4km is 9.30 s lol.......mine is approximately twice of hers i tink.............

Nelly Furtado ~ All Good Things Come To An End
Wednesday, October 03, 2007 @ 11:31 PM
Well................. i'm supposed to be mugging..............but here i am spending time watching Charmed season 1, having comm interview and registering a new account on Facebook.............i can't believe i dunno anything abt Facebook be4 tis............its just so cool! It's so much more fun than friendster n best of all u can store loads n loads of pics in there so easily............!!! Well yeah u can store unlimited amts of pics in frenster nowadays but that onli happened recently...........

Well mugging programming rite now n its not exactly going well.............i still have my french written tmr n i dunno y i haven started on it yet............at least i did well for my maths test so that's 1 down n 4 more to go............i noe i'm gonna screw up econs so screw it...........but i tink it's better if i dun screw up my physics, french n programming...........which is why i intend to mug them seriously after tis...........actually i'm intending to go jogging after tis (the time NOW is apporoximately 11.30 pm) cos i really need to workout n i haven tried jogging in the middle of the nite in NUS...........i guess i wun be sleeping so early afterall......gonna do another programming paper den jog den mug sum french be4 i sleep.....i reckon that'll be ard 3 to 4 am be4 i finally turn in..........

Good luck to me den............

Natalie Imbruglia ~ Torn
Tuesday, October 02, 2007 @ 10:14 PM
French oral was quite sucky......so was maths.......and im getting cold feet abt econs since those senile profs actually set a 44 MCQ paper that last for a mere 1 hour.......and i haven started my revision on econs yet..........i am so screwed...............

I hope i dun die too badly for physics though i dun even noe when my my make-up is............and i seriously hope i can score more than 50% for programming since the average mark is 50%.............

Die..................

I wanna watch movie, buy new books and get my contacts done.........but no time...........

Die..................


Rihanna ~ Please Don't Stop The Music